01 March 07
Assalamu’Alaykum
The suprise and shock that just fickered across my face unseen to you all was some big suprise and shock….’why?’ u all wonder…..because i checked the date. yea i checked the date and saw that it was already the first of March. for me that means handing in six courseworks…none of which i have done yet, let alone started….and well can you blame me? if it was someone else in my postion i wouldn’t blame them…..but it isn’t someone else after all….so I have to deal with the situation…..i kno im going to have a jam packed schedule this following week…..six coursewrks to hand in within a week…thts to start and finish them…guest comming round this weekend which means i won’t even be home to work….and after all that next week is exam week……no time to revise……
Tho i can remember when i had mosque finals 2 years ago and instead of staying home i had fun and went to another town for shopping with all with my whole family and we all returned home late….of course i was sitting about in the car with my Behesti zewar open in my lap while all the oldies went to the boring shops…hell i even chose revising my Behesti zewar over going to buy chips to eat….i mean who does that?!?! The best bit of shopping was when i saw one of the mosque teachers strolling along the street with her husband….not!….well it was b’ham tht i went to after all…typical asian filled place……i hid behind the car from her till she had gone by……thank Allah she didnt see me…or the lecture would never end…….
Everyone at mosque was frowning at me the next day as they knew i had been shopping because i didn’t go to my teachers house the day before for last minute work…….It was something like out of question that i would achive anything good. That was my last year at mosque and my teacher was very upset with me…i must have been the only one who wasn’t bothered or couldn’t care less about position….as long as i achieved good marks and as long as i knew the knowledge, understood it and applied it, it was all good for me……my teacher told me before the exam [in a veryyy dissapointed voice], ”well, nevermind u havn’t revised and position doesn’t matter, so long as your percentage is good…”
well Alhamdulillah i came in second position missing first place by one mark……not that i mind tho….the gift for second prize was wellll nicer than the one for first prize 
as soon as i found out my position my teachers first words were ”not good enough….you were meant to come first..” She wouldn’t even smile and she refused to look at me…..wonder what happened to the comment that she made before the exam about position not mattering….
and well ofcourse i had to put up with jealousy and everyone regretting the fact that they spent the day before revising and i was out shopping…..They didn’t put me through as much torment as the time when i returned home frm hospital and the stupid idiot that i am went to school the next day and found out we had a test…..i spent the morning break[and maybe i hid my book and revised all through the morning lessons also but no one needs to know that] and my lunch hour revising for the exam…….i aced the exam Alhamdulillah and had to put up with my childish, immature friends who cudn’t understand how i managed to beat them if i was lying in hospital a day before….wonder what they were hinting at…..*sigh* some ppl….
well i kno i wont have much time to revise much in advance…..maybe the day before the actuall exam……which reminds me of homewrk tht i havnt done due for tomorrow……no wait! i mean due for today!! helll im not in the mood…..
to some ppl words mean nothing….they flow from their mouths like water falling from a water fall….only difference being…water falls are beautifull…….and well some ppls words aren’t…! To me….words are a huge thing! the right words can bring on a smile to someones face…make someone laugh…..make someone joyful and happy….make them feel good…..but the wrong words…..they could do a lot of harm……break a person…..make them upset…make them cry….slice their heart and completely shatter them.
some ppl think of themselves only….really selfish ppl….they are so immature and stuck up they see nothing but the traps designed and covered in beauty and adornment by shaytaan…so they fall deeper and deeper into their ways. but always in the end they lose out and they make them selves suffer….but ofcourse the suffering they put others through before that time…..well doesn’t that person just have to put up with it……..
nope i dnt feel better after ranting and blogging…..*sigh* for the first time in my life i actually feel like smashing my fist into someones face…..and i was never one to settle scores…..especially with violence….i learnt to forgive and forget and would usually back down so long as i got my point across…but if they wanted to go on and they pressed the limits..well it turned nasty…..especially arguing against me who people say ‘argues so polietly’….well hey i was taught manners 
… but sometimes you just can’t seem to bring yourself to put others before you and you have to put yourself first……its always in these situtaions……where u get stabbed in the back…….and then you realise who are the few truthful among the corrupt many…..who are the few trusted among the untrusted many……and who in turn for loyalty deserve back your loyalty………. just remember…..dnt pass my limits and ur safe…..the words my sisters ever only uttered for those who have pressed it is ‘uh oh i feel sorry for them’….
anyone tried the ‘new’ orbit complete? not so new now, but its just wicked!! a box lives next to my pillow…yea my pillow i have a whole collection of things that live next to my pillow…….dnt ask…you already kno im totally crazy and come up with the randomest things…..
and now it looks like i need to get some sleep before i have to get up and do my howework in a mad rush before class…..
enjoy the boring updates……thats like saying a fool is smart…..or even a chicken is brave lol
[count and shout how many times u rolled your eyes and called me names and feel free to leave comments for me to read when i feel macbeth puttin me to slp...]
