11 Jan 07 – What a day….
Assalamu’Alaykum
looks like everyone is managing to get the link to my blog…….i thank you mimz for tht….lol…….ill live with it….i think…if i dont……you all know it was fright…..
seems like its the ‘hair cutting’ season……everone seems to be cutting their hair….so i decide to go to one of my dear friends to ask the question ‘why?, why is it tht all of a sudden everyone is gettin their hair cut’……..and wat does she reply with…….that she was plannin on getting a trim…….so now everyone is telling me to also cut/trim my hair…….dream on guys……..
I have waaaay toooo many nick names……and here i am reading on MSN someone brainstorm a new nick for me……..like i need tht……
Someone in my family decided to eat the last of the pista burfee…..thank you who ever that was……….
bak to lessons tomorrow…..i enjoyed having them cancelled for 2 days…yet i done no work in tht time sadly……so looks like ill be up late today…..catchin up………and obviously ill be online…..unless of course mom carrys out her threat and takes my laptop……..which i doubt coz shes too nice Alhamdulillah……but when shes angry……well thts another story but i can wrk round her……
*siiiigh* i wish i was a normal person……….well i can still wish [Inshallah] one day tht i am………and Alhamdulillah for all tht i was given………..after all tht does make me who i am……….not tht i am anyone…..but im still a human……and to the few ppl who appreciate who i am, i am a someone….yea ive come to accept tht because if i dnt then how do i expect others to…..
and like many are saying….what a week this has been……its funny…just one sentence from a person can destroy your mood…….sheeeeesh why do some ppl use their minds for emotion…..and then i get told im toooooooo kind, caring and softhearted…… good for me…..at least some ppl dnt mind abusing tht and walkin all over me…….well all i can say…go ahead ppl…hurt me do all u like to me…..just dont come cryin to me for my sympathy when it happens back to you……..tho sadly if u do im bound to be sympathetic……..i need to learn how to dislike and say no….
can i say tht the day just got wrse……no i shud be sayin Alhamdulillah it isnt wrse than wat it could be…….
why can we love someone soo much…why do they hurt us so much in responce…why? why? why? why will tht question never get answered…….why do they feel nothing….why dont they care……and after all tht….WHY do we hold so much love in our heart for such ppl…..WHY? Why cant they see the tears tht fall down our face due to the pain…..why are they not there when they said they would always be!!! WHY? why do ppl keep telling us tht missing place in the heart shall be filled up someday……why do ppl say its so easy to move on?why? yet after all this why do they claim they understand our pain! whyyy?? why was the word why ever created??whyyyy? tears are falling freely dwn my face….i have no one to stop them………no one oline who cares……no one at all….i have no one……but i do have the best of all…i have Allah!! ya Allah how could i forget you!! Ya Allah forgive me for who i am!! My Lord forgive me for all the wrong i do!! Ya Allah i turn to you at times i need u!! ya Allah at times things go my way i become blind!! ya Allah i need you always, yet i am too blind to see!!Ya Allah forgive me!! Ya Allah forgive me!!!ya Allah forgive us alll!!!!!! ya Allah we claim to love u yet do nothing te way u tell us!! ya Allah guide us!! help us to become better muslims!!! ya Allah let us be thankful to you!! Ya Allah nothin happens but with ur command….even if we dislike it let us be thankfull for it…for it could have been worse!
Ya Allah guide us all!! Ya Rahman Ya Raheem!! show us all with ur mercy, blessing, love and guidance….Ya Allah at this helpless time you alone help me u alone guide me yet in return i again do wrong!! my Lord forgive me!! let me be patient for i kno all good and bad is from you alone!
Im out……..wat a day its been……i wont read thru this…coz ill just decide not to post it……
and this was written when no one was online…….and for all them true friends of mine! Jazakallah khair for all u have done for me…i love u all for Allahs sake and may u be rewarded with the best in both worlds…my duas are aways with you all!!
Mimz said,
January 11, 2007 at 11:13 pm
assalamu alaikum..
subhanallah, guess this is just a crappy week for all of us lol
ameen to the dua’s
may allah grant us patience ameen…
fi aman allah
w’salaam
sapphire236 said,
January 11, 2007 at 11:18 pm
wa’alaykum salam…
yea tell me abt it….
Ameen!!! sabr sabr sabr! tho after ranting i feel better lol…..Alhamdulillah..but it will be back to hit me i kno……
Eliwen said,
January 11, 2007 at 11:24 pm
You know… I might as well just copy and paste this post into my blog… (Though so far all posts have been private)
I did have a bit of that barfee though… hehe.
Eliwen said,
January 11, 2007 at 11:28 pm
PS. True, pure, unconditional love never ever dies…
Even when it’s one sided…
sapphire236 said,
January 11, 2007 at 11:34 pm
awwwww *hugs*
subhanallah!! yea ur right!!! sabr inshallah!!!!
and i wonder who ate tht barfee…..lol
love u lots and al the best im here by ur side always with duas*hug* after all u went thru u deserve the best!
Digital Nomad said,
January 14, 2007 at 9:09 pm
Welcome to blog world, [insert latest nick here]!!!! Come and get the burfee!
More on the love thing later…when i sort thru it myself 
Digital Nomad said,
January 14, 2007 at 9:34 pm
Darling…I just read thru the love part….and wanted to say: that is why, you got the reason: Sometimes we might feel love and don’t get it back, and when we turn to Allah in our difficulty, that is the reason for that difficulty. That moment where we realize that the only constant in our universe is Allah, the only One who truly cares in a way that can totally help us is Allah…that is the very reason we go thru our many human sufferings. MashaAllah…once you have gone thru the pain in its entirety, you WILL feel strong again, and you will realize that you have passed the test. And you will be able to empathize with the next person you see in pain. I hope you have people who can take some of the sting away, if only for a little while…
Love you, darling, for the sake of Allah! You’re too sweet, mashaAllah! *kisses*
sapphire said,
January 14, 2007 at 11:14 pm
lol thank you for the welcome…..lol yep u made the newest nick!!
its not that type of love Alhamdulillah lol….more of the sisterly and friendship type…so true Allah is always there Alhamdulillah to turn to…..As yusuf (a.s) always said ‘Allah is enough for me’….Alhamdulillah
Soo true the pain helps you to relate to others……..Alhamdulillah for all them true friends tht i have among whom you are
Mashallah ur sweeter…love u also *hugs*
simplymuslim said,
April 4, 2008 at 5:41 am
Assalamu Alaikum,
This is the first time I am reading your blog and I love it. I totally understand what you meant about unrequited love…speaking from experience. I really had a tough time and was really very down for almost a year, but Alhamdulillah as much as it annoys you at this to hear: It gets better, seriously.
Just trust in Allah and ask him to make you strong and patient.
tc [believe me, you will get people who will love you as much as you love them...caring people win. Always]